Mentally Strong but Physically Weak

Current Thoughts
1. Flowers and trees are very intricate.
2. Oatmeal. Sticky yet delicious.
3. People who go out of their way to be nice...they make my day.
4. Two of my favorite bands are playing an all acoustic set TOGETHER and I can't go.
5. I sewed my ripped bathing suit and Im proud.
6. A girl who sits next to me in one of my classes smells real bad. everyday.
7. People surprise you.

Hope your day is going well :)

Wow Can I Get More Random?

According the dictionary, and the website of all time... wikipedia...Marriage is a social spiritual or legal union of individuals. Really?
Lately I have been having some deep thoughts on marriage. Kind of weird I know. But marriage is a weird thing. Think about it. When you get married, everything changes. Your world is flipped upside down. It isn't you anymore its we. You now have a whole new person to take care for hopefully as much as you care for yourself. That's not even the hardest part. What I can't wrap my head around is spending the rest of my life on Earth with one person. Think about how much time that is! I cant even stand spending a few minutes with some people. I guess that is the beauty of love. I cannot wait for the time when I can love a person so much that I want to spend the rest of my life with them. But one thing, who will this person be? Do I know them? Are we friends? Acquaintances? Have I known them for years? Months? Weeks? Or have we not met? And if so, when will we meet? Will I know that that is the person I will spend the rest of my life with?
Just some thoughts. Goodnight.
-Riles
P.S. I just re read this, and this is by far the gayest blog I've ever written. So romantical. So sentimental. That definitely isn't like me. What's going on??

one is silver and the others gold

Hellooo!
I write to you tonight in order to let you know that sometimes, we have to drop what is important and just have a little fun. Now I don't recommend to do this often, but every once in a while it works good. Life is stressful. What can we do? This past weekend I had a lot on my mind. By a lot I mean polo and school... what's new? Instead of spending hours on tedious homework, or pumping some iron in the gym like I should have done, I decided just to drop everything and have a grand time. And I did. And I enjoyed it. Of course now that it is Sunday night and I haven't accomplished anything, I am a walking ball of stress. Oh well. I guess it will all unfold in the morning. Things have a funny way of working themselves out.
Much love,
Riles

Bitter Sweet

Hi there!
I notice that I start almost all of my e-mails that way. Hi there! It says I am trying to be fun and professional at the same time.

Anyways,I have not formally told you guys about A&L day. My new favorite day of the week. So here it goes. Tuesdays are naturally the worst day of the week. Not anymore friends. Not anymore. I now have a new tradition (with a couple of newer but greater friends Nicole and Kathleen) where we go to dinner and the library on Tuesday nights. It makes my week 70% better! We get to relax and hang out, chat about life, and then hit up the library for some homework time. So much stress is relieved in these few hours. So we've had about 4 A&L days so far, and today we hit a big speed bump. Kathleen had work. WHAT THE HECK?! What do we do. Do we go without her? postpone? What? Well we went... just the two of us. Definitely a bitter sweet feeling. Bitter in the fact that Kathleen wasn't there and we missed her, yet sweet in the fact that Nicole and I still managed to pull of another successful A&L day all on our own. We had a bangin time, and took our weight lifting partnership to an all new high. Enough about A&L, here are a few things that have been on my mind lately.

First off, is the distance between my dorm and the library. Its about a 600 meter distance. Now, after practice, tired and wet, do i want to walk there in the dark? Would it be easier to drive? I can never decide! It hurts my brain to think about it. AH!

Second, is the fact that at CSUMB they provide 25% of all freshman with an academic coach. These coaches live in San Francisco and call us once a week to give us "advice" on our academic week. I personally love my coach, and would love to be besties with her but here is the thing... I know NOTHING about her beside her name. She is there for me to use her. It is the first one sided relationship I have ever had, and I just wanted to share... that it is the most awkward thing ever. C'mon to talk to someone once a week for a whole year and nothing about them! So strange!!!

Anywhoo, lots of ideas have been floating through my head lately, so excpect a sequence of blogs this week. :D Thats all for now.
-Riles

A&L Day All the Way

Okay so here's the deal. Considering its midnight and I still have about an hour left of homework, I am going to make this short but sweet. Gotta get it off my chest if ya know what I am saying.
There are two ways a person can react when things go wrong in life.
Reaction #1: Be a big baby about it, maybe shed a few tears, give up, be mad at whoever or whatever the situation involves.
Reaction #2: Be strong, put on that smiley face, and work harder to try and resolve the situation.
All my life Ive been going with #2. I think it works so I am going to continue to use this sneaky tactict. What can you do? Just gotta keep ya head up as my good friends Tupac and Kellie say.
Good night friends and foes.
<3 Riles
PS Tuesday is my new favorite day of the week.

Rainy Daaayyy

Ive been having writters block lately. No worries, Ive been pondering some great stuff for next week. Until then, here are some randoms about me.
1. Lately I have noticed that my distance vision is getting worse.
2. I don’t really know how to type… I just kinda poke very quickly.
3. My voice is ridiculously high pitched.
4. I’ve never been real mad, disappointed a few times.
5. The new Willy Wonka makes me want to cry because it is that lame.
6. I write a lot in cursive.
7. Recently I started this thing called blogging. I decided it’s the less gay version of a diary.
8. Driving relieves my stress…. And it’s fun. I really want to go on a road trip RIGHT NOW.
9. I am the oldest out of ALL my cousins and ALL of my siblings. I love my family.
10. I am falling in love… with this place called Monterey.
11. When I have kids I want two boys and a girl. Maybe.
12. I get cold really easily.. REALLY easily.
13. I get excited by mail especially if it’s the mysterious type.
14. Shoot I get excited about almost anything.
15. Harry Potter and Hello Kitty are gay. So is Twilight, and the Jonas Brothers.
16. I am going to school to be a Spanish teacher. HA (Still makes me laugh)
17. I say warsh instead of wash.
18. Booths are naturally better than tables.
19. Unexpected surprises are fun. Surprises that are expected are not.
20. I wear my retainer every night. HAHAHA I’m such a rule follower!!!
21. The past 19 years of my life have been relatively calm and uneventful. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Maybe neither.
22. My cars name is Ruth. She is sweet but sassy.
23. I still sleep with my baby blanket. HA but I think teddy bears a re sick.
24. I don’t have a single best friend but about 25 great friends.
25. I am not too keen on hugs.

Ima Card House Dreamer... So What?

Here is a little song by This Providence, that has definitely been the anthem to my 19 years of life.

"My world is falling apart.
I was a fool, I never saw it coming.
Oh no, no.
My life is like a card house.
A delicate construction
With no regard for the wind.

Everybody's changing.
Oh everybody's changing.
And I don't know know know know know how much more I can take.

I thought I had everything under control.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought I held my world in my hands.
Until it broke and I awoke from this foolish dream.

I put so much of myself in everything else.
Yeah in everything else.
It was a dream come seemingly true.
Torn at the seams revealing a nightmare.

I thought I had everything under control.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought I held my world in my hands.
Until it broke and I awoke from this foolish dream.

I thought I had everything under control.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought I held my world in my hands.
Until it broke my heart.
Everything I loved had changed.

Coffee and cigarettes can't save me.
No, it's a hope where there's no chance of a hope in the world.
And I'm hoping for. (I'm hoping for)

I thought I had everything under control.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought I held my world in my hands.
Until it broke and I awoke from this foolish dream.

I thought I had everything under control.
Well, I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought I held my world in my hands.
Until it broke my heart.
Everything I loved was flawed."



Hope you had a marvelous monday.
-Riles